This sounds really stupid, but it sounded so fun to say!!:
Your in a relationship with life, and death is trying to steal you. You deal with life through all the pain and sadness, but there's still so much to love... It's the day that death finally steals you over, and you cheat on life, and it gives you up...
Omg, that sounds soo dumb but it was soo funny, I had to say it xD
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
Haley,
I'm so happy,
That you found someone new.
Instead of chasing the guy,
That only claimed he loved you.
I'm glad you've got a guy,
Who won't lie or claim.
I'm glad you got a guy,
So your not out there alone,
I mean you've got your friends,
But now you've got a guy of your own.
I'm glad that your happy,
There's finally something new,
For you to be looking forward to.
Haley, I love you. =]
I'm so happy,
That you found someone new.
Instead of chasing the guy,
That only claimed he loved you.
I'm glad you've got a guy,
Who won't lie or claim.
I'm glad you got a guy,
So your not out there alone,
I mean you've got your friends,
But now you've got a guy of your own.
I'm glad that your happy,
There's finally something new,
For you to be looking forward to.
Haley, I love you. =]
She stepped off the sidewalk,
Into the pouring rain,
Thinking about her life,
She wanted to start over again.
She thought about her memories,
She thought about the past,
She thought about they days she spent,
Wondering how life would last.
She remembered all the cuts,
The scars, and the pain,
She remembered all the days,
Crying in the pouring rain.
She remembered her best friends,
Which both she had lost,
She remembered her little sister,
Gone with much cost.
She remembered all the tears,
Remembered all the days,
Remembered each memory,
As she stood in the rain.
She soon began to cry,
About her whole past,
But thought about the good times,
And not the bad.
She thought of her first kiss,
Her first hug,
Her first love.
She thought about her sister,
And her little stuffed bug.
She thought about her boyfriend,
And the first date.
She thought about the time,
They had snuck out late.
She thought about her parents,
Her future,
And all,
She stepped back inside,
And decided she didn't want to change her life at all.
Into the pouring rain,
Thinking about her life,
She wanted to start over again.
She thought about her memories,
She thought about the past,
She thought about they days she spent,
Wondering how life would last.
She remembered all the cuts,
The scars, and the pain,
She remembered all the days,
Crying in the pouring rain.
She remembered her best friends,
Which both she had lost,
She remembered her little sister,
Gone with much cost.
She remembered all the tears,
Remembered all the days,
Remembered each memory,
As she stood in the rain.
She soon began to cry,
About her whole past,
But thought about the good times,
And not the bad.
She thought of her first kiss,
Her first hug,
Her first love.
She thought about her sister,
And her little stuffed bug.
She thought about her boyfriend,
And the first date.
She thought about the time,
They had snuck out late.
She thought about her parents,
Her future,
And all,
She stepped back inside,
And decided she didn't want to change her life at all.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
"No you don't know what it's like, When nothing feels alright, You don't know what it's like, To be like me. To be hurt, To feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked, When your down, To feel like you've been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, When no ones there to save you, No you don't know what it's like, What it's like, Welcome to my life." ~Welcome To My Life, Simple Plan
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
My thoughts?
"Sometimes our eyes can blind us and logic can be misleading. We have truly lived when we open our hearts to things beyond what we can ever see or understand."
My friend sent me this quote, and I just started thinking about it, and it's so true. If we just see things, we get all panicked and start to wonder what's going on, and we conclude things, sometimes right, sometimes wrong. If we're wrong, it can lead us into situations, that cause so many problems, and you'll just get deep into drama. But if you open your heart, and take the time to notice things, understand things, figure things out before you judge, your going to be a much better person, and a lot wiser than others.
This was just something I just decided to share with you guys... I hope you take the time to think about it.. it could make you a better person =]
My friend sent me this quote, and I just started thinking about it, and it's so true. If we just see things, we get all panicked and start to wonder what's going on, and we conclude things, sometimes right, sometimes wrong. If we're wrong, it can lead us into situations, that cause so many problems, and you'll just get deep into drama. But if you open your heart, and take the time to notice things, understand things, figure things out before you judge, your going to be a much better person, and a lot wiser than others.
This was just something I just decided to share with you guys... I hope you take the time to think about it.. it could make you a better person =]
Thursday, November 4, 2010
I only got one reason for livin'... He's always been their for me... Always. And when I cried, he always knew what to say... My one reason for livin' may be hundreds of miles away, and I may barely get to speak to him, and never get to see him... But it doesn't matter... As long as he's on this earth, I'm here too.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
From where I stand, it seems like I wasn't important in the beginning. From where I stand, it seems like you never really loved me. From where I stand, our friendship is broken. From where I stand, yesterday was our final goodbye... And there won't ever be another Hello... at least for awhile.. A long long while, because from where I stand, it seems like I wasn't important, and I never will be...
Thursday, October 21, 2010
The song I wrote =]
Packa packa box, packa packa suitcase, packa packa packa packa LLAMA!
[I was sooo bored in youth group XD]
[I was sooo bored in youth group XD]
Haha I don't know why he's dating you... I mean, you are pretty, well, from a couple thousand miles away... In a cave... Underwater... In the pitch black... Ahaha b**** your uglyy! And my Haley is quite gorgeous! And she's not a b**** either! And she cares about her friends. So she's gorgeous and has a good personality... And your ugly and dead to 3/4's of the world... Alright, love it while lasts, 'cause you ain't got a chance of this lastin' as long as you want it to!
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
She packed her suitcase,
And walked out the door,
"I can't take this,
I don't want to live here anymore!"
Her dad was always drunk,
And her mom was always high,
The 16 year old girl often wanted to die.
She traveled down the road,
Her suitcase dragging on the ground,
She must find a place where she'll never be found.
She was crossing a schoolyard,
She stepped off of the curb,
The drunk driver cussed and swerved.
It was at that moment she realized she didn't want to die yet,
She was only a kid,
She was seeking love,
There was so much to do with such little time.
But the car didn't turn in time,
They hit the girl,
She instantly died.
Now at her funeral,
She watches from heaven,
There's a little girl crying,
She's only seven.
A tear fell down from that angel cheek,
Remembering her sister,
Her words, so weak.
The little girl looked at the sky,
Wondering why,
Then a soft angel voice echoed in her head,
And at the very moment she thought her sister wasn't dead.
"Baby don't cry,
I'm all right,
I'm in heaven,
God will take care of me,
And you'll get a new mommy and daddy."
For her sister hadn't learned yet,
That their parents were out,
Their father was drunk,
And his patience ran out.
He was screaming at their mother,
With a drunken rage,
He didn't see the girl,
Crossing the road in the rain.
For when he did,
He swerved real fast,
But it was to late,
The moments didn't last.
The car flipped as it went off the road,
And mommy and daddy were dead,
Before their seven year old daughter was even home.
And walked out the door,
"I can't take this,
I don't want to live here anymore!"
Her dad was always drunk,
And her mom was always high,
The 16 year old girl often wanted to die.
She traveled down the road,
Her suitcase dragging on the ground,
She must find a place where she'll never be found.
She was crossing a schoolyard,
She stepped off of the curb,
The drunk driver cussed and swerved.
It was at that moment she realized she didn't want to die yet,
She was only a kid,
She was seeking love,
There was so much to do with such little time.
But the car didn't turn in time,
They hit the girl,
She instantly died.
Now at her funeral,
She watches from heaven,
There's a little girl crying,
She's only seven.
A tear fell down from that angel cheek,
Remembering her sister,
Her words, so weak.
The little girl looked at the sky,
Wondering why,
Then a soft angel voice echoed in her head,
And at the very moment she thought her sister wasn't dead.
"Baby don't cry,
I'm all right,
I'm in heaven,
God will take care of me,
And you'll get a new mommy and daddy."
For her sister hadn't learned yet,
That their parents were out,
Their father was drunk,
And his patience ran out.
He was screaming at their mother,
With a drunken rage,
He didn't see the girl,
Crossing the road in the rain.
For when he did,
He swerved real fast,
But it was to late,
The moments didn't last.
The car flipped as it went off the road,
And mommy and daddy were dead,
Before their seven year old daughter was even home.
I see that your online,
And I completely ignore your name,
I'm done with your crap,
I'm done playing games.
I see you around,
Smile, say hi,
I hug you,
You squeeze me tight,
But this is no longer love,
It's the friendship we share,
We have some good memories that we'll keep,
We won't let them disappear.
So now I sit here,
Running my fingers through my hair,
Thinking about all the great times,
That we shared.
And I completely ignore your name,
I'm done with your crap,
I'm done playing games.
I see you around,
Smile, say hi,
I hug you,
You squeeze me tight,
But this is no longer love,
It's the friendship we share,
We have some good memories that we'll keep,
We won't let them disappear.
So now I sit here,
Running my fingers through my hair,
Thinking about all the great times,
That we shared.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
You said you loved her,
That was a lie,
You said you cared,
Just go and die!
You treated her wrong,
Caused to many fights,
You upset her every night,
You'd life her spirits,
Then bring her down,
Acted like you could turn her life around,
You said she was pretty,
And you loved her so much,
But now, I ask,
Why are you dating that sl**
You played her,
And treated her like sh**,
What is wrong with you?
You co** su***** d***?
You should go die in a hole.
For I won't care at all,
Because she's my best friend,
And you don't matter at all.
That was a lie,
You said you cared,
Just go and die!
You treated her wrong,
Caused to many fights,
You upset her every night,
You'd life her spirits,
Then bring her down,
Acted like you could turn her life around,
You said she was pretty,
And you loved her so much,
But now, I ask,
Why are you dating that sl**
You played her,
And treated her like sh**,
What is wrong with you?
You co** su***** d***?
You should go die in a hole.
For I won't care at all,
Because she's my best friend,
And you don't matter at all.
Monday, October 11, 2010
I wish I could see you,
Hug you,
Love you,
But your to far away.
I wish I could talk to you,
Laugh with you,
I wish you were with me on this very day.
I miss those hugs,
That silly smile,
The times I'd stay with the family for awhile.
Although I don't remember much about you,
For it's been 4 years,
You passed on when I was about 8,
I was to young to understand.
So even though your far away,
In my heart you'll always stay,
For I don't understand why,
But God thought it was your time to die...
<3 =(
<3UABS<3
Hug you,
Love you,
But your to far away.
I wish I could talk to you,
Laugh with you,
I wish you were with me on this very day.
I miss those hugs,
That silly smile,
The times I'd stay with the family for awhile.
Although I don't remember much about you,
For it's been 4 years,
You passed on when I was about 8,
I was to young to understand.
So even though your far away,
In my heart you'll always stay,
For I don't understand why,
But God thought it was your time to die...
<3 =(
<3UABS<3
There comes a point in life,
When it all falls into place,
Everything you loved,
Suddenly turns into hate.
Every up turns down,
Everything is a mistake,
Your stuck in the middle,
Don't know which road to take.
Old friends turn to enemies,
For reasons oh so small,
Night by night you wonder,
Will there be any new friends at all?
Promises are broken,
Friends stab you in the back,
Boys break your heart,
And your life seems all collapsed.
You have no one to turn to,
Crying softly in a corner,
But someone out there cares for you,
Even though it doesn't seem so,
Someone out there loves you,
And will call if they need you.
So find that special someone,
Who will always stand by your side,
Someone who will love you,
If they're dead or alive.
Someone who will hold you close,
In reality or dreams,
Because even if they're dead,
They can be watching over you,
And closer than it seems.
When it all falls into place,
Everything you loved,
Suddenly turns into hate.
Every up turns down,
Everything is a mistake,
Your stuck in the middle,
Don't know which road to take.
Old friends turn to enemies,
For reasons oh so small,
Night by night you wonder,
Will there be any new friends at all?
Promises are broken,
Friends stab you in the back,
Boys break your heart,
And your life seems all collapsed.
You have no one to turn to,
Crying softly in a corner,
But someone out there cares for you,
Even though it doesn't seem so,
Someone out there loves you,
And will call if they need you.
So find that special someone,
Who will always stand by your side,
Someone who will love you,
If they're dead or alive.
Someone who will hold you close,
In reality or dreams,
Because even if they're dead,
They can be watching over you,
And closer than it seems.
Monday, October 4, 2010
There ain't no point in tryin',
When each time you'll fail,
He ain't got no love,
He really doesn't care.
He'll act like he cares about you,
But the next thing you know,
He'll be cheatin' on you,
He thinks he can have whoever he wants,
Your a victim,
There ain't no cop,
To stop you from committing this crime,
Don't worry, this ain't my last line,
He'll stick with you for awhile,
Then he'll hurt you real bad,
It's a very painful torture,
And it's going to last,
We've tried to tell you,
What he'll put you through,
You just won't believe,
So when he cheats on you,
Don't turn to us,
Because we'll all be laughing at you!
When each time you'll fail,
He ain't got no love,
He really doesn't care.
He'll act like he cares about you,
But the next thing you know,
He'll be cheatin' on you,
He thinks he can have whoever he wants,
Your a victim,
There ain't no cop,
To stop you from committing this crime,
Don't worry, this ain't my last line,
He'll stick with you for awhile,
Then he'll hurt you real bad,
It's a very painful torture,
And it's going to last,
We've tried to tell you,
What he'll put you through,
You just won't believe,
So when he cheats on you,
Don't turn to us,
Because we'll all be laughing at you!
I was staring at my ceiling,
Thinking your name,
Remembering all the good times,
Between you and me.
I remember at my party,
We were hugging,
And everyone gathered around,
We formed a huge group hug,
Then we all fell down.
I remember at your party,
We were laying under the stars,
I closed my eyes,
And your lips touched mine,
Forgetting who we are,
I remember at the park,
The first day we hung out, -While we were dating-
You put your arm around me,
And i slid close to you,
We held hands in silence,
Not knowing what to do.
I remember in the gazebo,
I was sitting on your lap,
Staring in your eyes,
It seemed like forever at last.
I remember at Haley's house,
After me and Haley's "wedding",
I rushed over to you,
And hugged you,
Never wanting to let go.
I remember all the fights,
Stupid, and so small,
You were mad,
And I got sad,
Scared it might end it all.
I remember the last time,
I looked into your eyes,
There was no hint of sparkle,
No hint of shine,
I went home that night,
I cried and cried.
I remember the day,
I wandered down the hall,
Hearing voices around me,
I didn't care at all.
I remember the night,
I texted you,
Telling you that we were through,
You lied,
You cheated,
I didn't understand,
You said you were sorry,
But I just can't give a second chance.
I remember the last night,
I talked to you,
You asked if I was mad at you,
Of course it was true.
I remembered all these things,
As I lie here in bed,
And I realized that I love you,
But I have to let you go<3
Thinking your name,
Remembering all the good times,
Between you and me.
I remember at my party,
We were hugging,
And everyone gathered around,
We formed a huge group hug,
Then we all fell down.
I remember at your party,
We were laying under the stars,
I closed my eyes,
And your lips touched mine,
Forgetting who we are,
I remember at the park,
The first day we hung out, -While we were dating-
You put your arm around me,
And i slid close to you,
We held hands in silence,
Not knowing what to do.
I remember in the gazebo,
I was sitting on your lap,
Staring in your eyes,
It seemed like forever at last.
I remember at Haley's house,
After me and Haley's "wedding",
I rushed over to you,
And hugged you,
Never wanting to let go.
I remember all the fights,
Stupid, and so small,
You were mad,
And I got sad,
Scared it might end it all.
I remember the last time,
I looked into your eyes,
There was no hint of sparkle,
No hint of shine,
I went home that night,
I cried and cried.
I remember the day,
I wandered down the hall,
Hearing voices around me,
I didn't care at all.
I remember the night,
I texted you,
Telling you that we were through,
You lied,
You cheated,
I didn't understand,
You said you were sorry,
But I just can't give a second chance.
I remember the last night,
I talked to you,
You asked if I was mad at you,
Of course it was true.
I remembered all these things,
As I lie here in bed,
And I realized that I love you,
But I have to let you go<3
Sunday, September 19, 2010
You promised you wouldn't fight,
But there you go,
I have to scream into the night,
"Leave him alone!
Just shutup!
Don't you even dare fight!"
"Babe, I'm trying to make a truce," you say,
"Just stop it," I say, then walk away,
You said you wouldn't fight,
Apparently you lied,
How am I supposed to trust you,
If you lie all the time?
You came up behind me,
Wrapped your arms around me,
"Where are you going?" you ask,
And I turned around,
I looked you in the eyes,
Afraid I'd start to cry,
Then buried my face in your shoulder,
And let out a sigh,
You hugged me tight,
Held me close,
"I'm sorry," you whispered,
It wasn't a joke,
Then your cousin came up behind me,
Wrapped his arms around both of us,
And screamed, "Group hug!"
Everyone surrounded us,
With happiness and love,
A huge smile spread on my face,
As I had to show I'm fine,
Then your cousin swayed back and forth,
We all started to fall,
I hit the ground,
Laughter all around,
As our group hug fell down.
You took my hand and pulled me up,
Asked if I was alright,
I laughed and said I was fine,
As another group hug grew tight =)
But there you go,
I have to scream into the night,
"Leave him alone!
Just shutup!
Don't you even dare fight!"
"Babe, I'm trying to make a truce," you say,
"Just stop it," I say, then walk away,
You said you wouldn't fight,
Apparently you lied,
How am I supposed to trust you,
If you lie all the time?
You came up behind me,
Wrapped your arms around me,
"Where are you going?" you ask,
And I turned around,
I looked you in the eyes,
Afraid I'd start to cry,
Then buried my face in your shoulder,
And let out a sigh,
You hugged me tight,
Held me close,
"I'm sorry," you whispered,
It wasn't a joke,
Then your cousin came up behind me,
Wrapped his arms around both of us,
And screamed, "Group hug!"
Everyone surrounded us,
With happiness and love,
A huge smile spread on my face,
As I had to show I'm fine,
Then your cousin swayed back and forth,
We all started to fall,
I hit the ground,
Laughter all around,
As our group hug fell down.
You took my hand and pulled me up,
Asked if I was alright,
I laughed and said I was fine,
As another group hug grew tight =)
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Tears hit the pillow, with silent mistakes,
Words choke out, with the same exact grace,
Questions of laughter, flow through her head,
She whispers her words, they flow like the wind,
Her hands shake, like silent earthquakes,
Tumbleweed words fall from her breath,
Breathing like deaths silent last breath,
Replaying the memories,
Ignoring the pain,
Falling into darkness, like the moon and the sun,
Thoughts are black, as she's lifted into the sky,
Like a bird, passing by.
[Just think about this... tell me what you think it means... and comment with that answer.]
Words choke out, with the same exact grace,
Questions of laughter, flow through her head,
She whispers her words, they flow like the wind,
Her hands shake, like silent earthquakes,
Tumbleweed words fall from her breath,
Breathing like deaths silent last breath,
Replaying the memories,
Ignoring the pain,
Falling into darkness, like the moon and the sun,
Thoughts are black, as she's lifted into the sky,
Like a bird, passing by.
[Just think about this... tell me what you think it means... and comment with that answer.]
You say "hey",
And I say "hi",
"What's up?" you ask,
I reply, "Just wantin' to die."
"Babe, don't say that. What's wrong?" you ask,
"My life's falling apart and no one cares."
"I care, and I know other people do too."
"Maybe one other person, besides you."
"Come on now, everyone loves you."
"That ain't true," I sit here and cry.
"Of course it is, and I don't lie."
"I know you don't but listen to me, my life's falling apart because of you and me..."
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing, just nothing..."
"Don't do this to me!"
"She said you like her, the stuff you say... I just don't know how I fell for all the tricks you played."
"All the things I said aren't true, I don't love her, I only love you!"
"Then why did you cheat? Can I ask you that?"
"I didn't, I didn't, who are you gonna believe? Her or me?"
"I have the proof, me heart is broken, the walls around my heart are slowly closing."
"What are you talking about? What do you mean?"
"I mean it's over. You don't love me."
"I love you! I really do! I don't love anyone, except you."
"Your only saying that, it's just a lie. Here's my last words, I love you, goodbye."
*Signs out*
She sits in her rooms,
And cries and cries,
She's slow dying more inside,
'How did I let him trick me?'
She thought,
'It's about time he got caught',
She crawled into bed,
Tears pouring down her face,
They hit the pillow,
With silent mistakes,
A little while later,
She stumbled out of bed,
Went into the kitchen with tear filled eyes,
Reached for a knife,
But took a gun instead,
Thought it was an easier way to take her life,
She walked to his house,
With the gun at her side,
She knocked on the door,
He opened it slowly,
"Hey.. are you.." he starts,
She hauls out the gun,
Puts it to her head,
"I came to say I love you,
I wanted to say goodbye,
I know that you still love me,
But it's not the way I'd like,
You love me a sister,
Or a friend instead,
But you don't love me like a girlfriend,
So I should say goodbye,"
Then she closed her eyes,
And the gun was out of her hands,
"Babe, dont do this," he cried,
The gun now at his side,
She pulled out the kitchen knife,
She had grapped as well,
She slit her throat right then and there,
And sounds of silence were let out,
She fell into his arms,
Desperate crys he let out,
As she died through tears and pain,
He starting crying,
Realizing,
It was his fault,
She was dead in his arms
And I say "hi",
"What's up?" you ask,
I reply, "Just wantin' to die."
"Babe, don't say that. What's wrong?" you ask,
"My life's falling apart and no one cares."
"I care, and I know other people do too."
"Maybe one other person, besides you."
"Come on now, everyone loves you."
"That ain't true," I sit here and cry.
"Of course it is, and I don't lie."
"I know you don't but listen to me, my life's falling apart because of you and me..."
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing, just nothing..."
"Don't do this to me!"
"She said you like her, the stuff you say... I just don't know how I fell for all the tricks you played."
"All the things I said aren't true, I don't love her, I only love you!"
"Then why did you cheat? Can I ask you that?"
"I didn't, I didn't, who are you gonna believe? Her or me?"
"I have the proof, me heart is broken, the walls around my heart are slowly closing."
"What are you talking about? What do you mean?"
"I mean it's over. You don't love me."
"I love you! I really do! I don't love anyone, except you."
"Your only saying that, it's just a lie. Here's my last words, I love you, goodbye."
*Signs out*
She sits in her rooms,
And cries and cries,
She's slow dying more inside,
'How did I let him trick me?'
She thought,
'It's about time he got caught',
She crawled into bed,
Tears pouring down her face,
They hit the pillow,
With silent mistakes,
A little while later,
She stumbled out of bed,
Went into the kitchen with tear filled eyes,
Reached for a knife,
But took a gun instead,
Thought it was an easier way to take her life,
She walked to his house,
With the gun at her side,
She knocked on the door,
He opened it slowly,
"Hey.. are you.." he starts,
She hauls out the gun,
Puts it to her head,
"I came to say I love you,
I wanted to say goodbye,
I know that you still love me,
But it's not the way I'd like,
You love me a sister,
Or a friend instead,
But you don't love me like a girlfriend,
So I should say goodbye,"
Then she closed her eyes,
And the gun was out of her hands,
"Babe, dont do this," he cried,
The gun now at his side,
She pulled out the kitchen knife,
She had grapped as well,
She slit her throat right then and there,
And sounds of silence were let out,
She fell into his arms,
Desperate crys he let out,
As she died through tears and pain,
He starting crying,
Realizing,
It was his fault,
She was dead in his arms
Friday, September 3, 2010
I sit here,
And think your name,
A tear runs down my face,
I close my eyes,
And whisper goodbye,
As I brace myself for the pain,
My pain I feel is different,
It worsens more each day,
No one knows what to do,
Or even what to say,
They say I'm fine,
I'll get over you,
I'm sorry guys,
That's just not true,
Your my best friend,
And you always will be,
No matter what you do,
They tell me that day by day,
The pain will slowly ease away,
I think that's selfish,
I think it's wrong,
To forget the one,
Who did no wrong,
No wrong? they ask,
As silence spreads,
My thoughts are mine,
I said what should be said,
"He did no wrong,
He did no right,
He did screw up on that night,
That does not change what he did to me,
He did nothing,
Don't you see?
I can't be mad,
I must stay strong,
He's in my life,
He helps me through,
If he knew you,
He would have helped you too."
And now as I lay down to sleep,
I pray to god he'll set you free,
Here with me,
Or far away,
I'll never forget you,
In my heart,
You shall stay.
And think your name,
A tear runs down my face,
I close my eyes,
And whisper goodbye,
As I brace myself for the pain,
My pain I feel is different,
It worsens more each day,
No one knows what to do,
Or even what to say,
They say I'm fine,
I'll get over you,
I'm sorry guys,
That's just not true,
Your my best friend,
And you always will be,
No matter what you do,
They tell me that day by day,
The pain will slowly ease away,
I think that's selfish,
I think it's wrong,
To forget the one,
Who did no wrong,
No wrong? they ask,
As silence spreads,
My thoughts are mine,
I said what should be said,
"He did no wrong,
He did no right,
He did screw up on that night,
That does not change what he did to me,
He did nothing,
Don't you see?
I can't be mad,
I must stay strong,
He's in my life,
He helps me through,
If he knew you,
He would have helped you too."
And now as I lay down to sleep,
I pray to god he'll set you free,
Here with me,
Or far away,
I'll never forget you,
In my heart,
You shall stay.
Monday, August 16, 2010
My head tells me one thing,
My heart says another,
My heart means the most to me,
I know I can't love another,
But my head it preventing me,
From suffering from a broken heart,
So I'll listen to me head,
And ignore the pain in my heart,
For now we're friends,
Benefits included,
My heart will get stronger,
And win the battle with my head,
But for now we'll just keep things the way they are,
And see where it goes from there...
My heart says another,
My heart means the most to me,
I know I can't love another,
But my head it preventing me,
From suffering from a broken heart,
So I'll listen to me head,
And ignore the pain in my heart,
For now we're friends,
Benefits included,
My heart will get stronger,
And win the battle with my head,
But for now we'll just keep things the way they are,
And see where it goes from there...
Sunday, August 15, 2010
To my best friend
Thinking of you makes me cry,
Sometimes it makes me want to die,
I want you home,
But you can't come,
Why do I lose the ones I love?
Friendships come,
And friendships go,
But ours will last forever, I know,
We may not speak,
Or laugh, or cry,
But I know your with me as each day passes by,
What you did was terribly wrong,
We didn't get to find a song,
I want you safe,
In our arms,
Where you can't find any harm,
Your my best friend,
You always will be,
No matter what you did to me,
No matter what you put me through,
I know it wasn't your fault,
It was the police who arrested you...
Sometimes it makes me want to die,
I want you home,
But you can't come,
Why do I lose the ones I love?
Friendships come,
And friendships go,
But ours will last forever, I know,
We may not speak,
Or laugh, or cry,
But I know your with me as each day passes by,
What you did was terribly wrong,
We didn't get to find a song,
I want you safe,
In our arms,
Where you can't find any harm,
Your my best friend,
You always will be,
No matter what you did to me,
No matter what you put me through,
I know it wasn't your fault,
It was the police who arrested you...
Written to my bf..
I think of how I love you,
I wonder if it will last,
Every fight we had,
Well it's in the past,
You mean so much to me,
Do I mean that much to you?
When you say you love me,
I wonder if you really do,
With your arms around me,
I feel safe and happy,
I break the awkward silences,
You tell me not to make a sound,
Your warm breath on my cheek,
When I'm freezing cold,
Your smile, your eyes,
The way you laugh,
I love it all,
I want it to last,
You make me smile,
Laugh and cry,
Sometimes you make me want to die,
I don't know how I make it through,
But somehow I survive with you... <3
I wonder if it will last,
Every fight we had,
Well it's in the past,
You mean so much to me,
Do I mean that much to you?
When you say you love me,
I wonder if you really do,
With your arms around me,
I feel safe and happy,
I break the awkward silences,
You tell me not to make a sound,
Your warm breath on my cheek,
When I'm freezing cold,
Your smile, your eyes,
The way you laugh,
I love it all,
I want it to last,
You make me smile,
Laugh and cry,
Sometimes you make me want to die,
I don't know how I make it through,
But somehow I survive with you... <3
I remember the day,
You looked in my eyes,
You told me forever,
Was it a lie?
You left for a week,
You haven't come back,
What's going on?
I don't understand,
You just disappeared,
Like a grain of sand,
I haven't got a phone call,
An email,
A letter,
Is your definition of forever, never?
I sat there and cried,
I waited four days,
You still weren't back,
I didn't know what to do or say,
I cried me a river,
I didn't go out,
You didn't love me,
I just figured that out,
Months went by,
The phone wrang,
"Hello?" I answered,
My throat dry,
My eyes sting,
"Yes this is.." I replied,
I didn't know the person on the other line,
"Yes, yes I understand," as I broke down in tears,
I hung up the phone,
Quiet with fear,
That was your mom,
She lives far away,
You were only home for a day,
You jumped off a cliff,
By some stupid dare,
Hit your head on a rock,
And died right there,
It took a few months to find out who your girlfriend was,
For you hadn't told your family,
We we're going to next month,
The wedding date was set,
The days had ticked on by,
But now your gone,
I didn't even get to say goodbye...
You looked in my eyes,
You told me forever,
Was it a lie?
You left for a week,
You haven't come back,
What's going on?
I don't understand,
You just disappeared,
Like a grain of sand,
I haven't got a phone call,
An email,
A letter,
Is your definition of forever, never?
I sat there and cried,
I waited four days,
You still weren't back,
I didn't know what to do or say,
I cried me a river,
I didn't go out,
You didn't love me,
I just figured that out,
Months went by,
The phone wrang,
"Hello?" I answered,
My throat dry,
My eyes sting,
"Yes this is.." I replied,
I didn't know the person on the other line,
"Yes, yes I understand," as I broke down in tears,
I hung up the phone,
Quiet with fear,
That was your mom,
She lives far away,
You were only home for a day,
You jumped off a cliff,
By some stupid dare,
Hit your head on a rock,
And died right there,
It took a few months to find out who your girlfriend was,
For you hadn't told your family,
We we're going to next month,
The wedding date was set,
The days had ticked on by,
But now your gone,
I didn't even get to say goodbye...
Saturday, August 14, 2010
You know there's something wrong when my voice get's shaky and my throat is dry. My eyes are watery, and you can hear the tears I cry. My sobs get loud, and my voice gets low. When I'm sitting in a puddle, and I don't know where to go. That's the sound of my cries, my tears pouring down like rain in the night. The smash on the floor and crash like waves, leaving me here, dying, with all this pain.
This is a poem written to my best friend
I checked my email,
For a text,
Why weren't you replying?
Was it for the best?
I sighed as I clicked 'check mail' again,
You always replied,
But not this time,
I waited a day,
And then the phone call came,
Telling me you were in jail,
I didn't know what to say,
Your my best friend,
What did you do?
I looked it up,
And I couldn't believe it was true,
You raped, strangled, and stabbed the girl you loved,
She rejected you,
You weren't her crush,
Over and over,
You tried and tried,
Over and over,
She pulled away,
Then she finally elbowed you in the face,
She tried to take off but you choked her,
'Till she stopped screaming,
It would soon be over,
That's when you raped her,
Then strangled her to death,
You stabbed her in the throat,
Without her leaving a last request,
You brought her to a secluded trail,
And threw her in the woods,
You told the cops you had no idea,
No one believed you would,
But then you admitted to it,
And I got scared,
You were in jail,
Not a lot of people cared,
It broke my heart,
And I cried,
$5 million bail,
I didn't think this was real,
I read an article,
It said the death penalty was possible,
I cried some more,
I didn't want you to die,
Your my best friend,
And no matter what,
I'll stand by your side,
Your name is written in lipstick on my mirror,
Every status has your name in hearts,
Every passing moment I think of you,
I pray for you,
I wish for you,
You've always been there for me,
Now I'll be here for you,
I feel bad for the girls family,
But none of this changes the way I think of you,
Your still my best friend,
Your still my "older brother,"
I wish you were home,
So I could talk to you,
I love you,
I miss you,
Everything about you,
I miss your advice,
And your jokes,
I miss the feeling of happiness I got,
When I talked to you,
Knowing you cared,
I looked and waited everywhere,
I wanted a phone call to come,
Saying you were free,
And home you would come,
I wanted you to come to Maine,
Visit me,
Just the way we planned,
Things are getting easier,
But I still cry,
I think about you every night,
I love you,
I miss you,
********* ****,
You're my best friend,
And I'll never forget you.
[I love you so much and you mean everything to me. Can't wait to see you.. Love you bub.]
(I didn't put in the name, I don't want people to know who he is...)
For a text,
Why weren't you replying?
Was it for the best?
I sighed as I clicked 'check mail' again,
You always replied,
But not this time,
I waited a day,
And then the phone call came,
Telling me you were in jail,
I didn't know what to say,
Your my best friend,
What did you do?
I looked it up,
And I couldn't believe it was true,
You raped, strangled, and stabbed the girl you loved,
She rejected you,
You weren't her crush,
Over and over,
You tried and tried,
Over and over,
She pulled away,
Then she finally elbowed you in the face,
She tried to take off but you choked her,
'Till she stopped screaming,
It would soon be over,
That's when you raped her,
Then strangled her to death,
You stabbed her in the throat,
Without her leaving a last request,
You brought her to a secluded trail,
And threw her in the woods,
You told the cops you had no idea,
No one believed you would,
But then you admitted to it,
And I got scared,
You were in jail,
Not a lot of people cared,
It broke my heart,
And I cried,
$5 million bail,
I didn't think this was real,
I read an article,
It said the death penalty was possible,
I cried some more,
I didn't want you to die,
Your my best friend,
And no matter what,
I'll stand by your side,
Your name is written in lipstick on my mirror,
Every status has your name in hearts,
Every passing moment I think of you,
I pray for you,
I wish for you,
You've always been there for me,
Now I'll be here for you,
I feel bad for the girls family,
But none of this changes the way I think of you,
Your still my best friend,
Your still my "older brother,"
I wish you were home,
So I could talk to you,
I love you,
I miss you,
Everything about you,
I miss your advice,
And your jokes,
I miss the feeling of happiness I got,
When I talked to you,
Knowing you cared,
I looked and waited everywhere,
I wanted a phone call to come,
Saying you were free,
And home you would come,
I wanted you to come to Maine,
Visit me,
Just the way we planned,
Things are getting easier,
But I still cry,
I think about you every night,
I love you,
I miss you,
********* ****,
You're my best friend,
And I'll never forget you.
[I love you so much and you mean everything to me. Can't wait to see you.. Love you bub.]
(I didn't put in the name, I don't want people to know who he is...)
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Daisy
October 3, 1998,
The first day you were alive,
1 year later,
We met,
That's the day you became my pet,
As life went on,
We became best friends,
I told you everything,
Every little secret I knew,
You couldn't talk back,
But that was okay,
I knew you were listening anyways,
I taught you tricks,
Played games with you,
We stayed in the tree house,
I curled up beside you,
You were my best friend,
And always will be,
I really miss you,
October 4th, 2009,
That's that day and year you died,
I cried and cried for 2 whole hours,
I lay beside you when you were sick,
I talked to you,
I cried for you,
I sung to you at times you were hurt,
And now your gone,
That's what hurts,
There's no one to tell my secrets to,
That's why I'm writing this poem for you,
I wrote a letter the night you died,
Wrote it for you,
It's what kept me alive inside,
When I was with you,
I felt like you were my only friend,
The one I could trust,
The one I could turn to,
_______________
Daisy Krug,
My sweet little dog,
Born October 3rd, 1998,
October 4th, 2009,
One day after her birthday,
Turned age 11,
Is the night my poor dog,
And best friend,
Died
The first day you were alive,
1 year later,
We met,
That's the day you became my pet,
As life went on,
We became best friends,
I told you everything,
Every little secret I knew,
You couldn't talk back,
But that was okay,
I knew you were listening anyways,
I taught you tricks,
Played games with you,
We stayed in the tree house,
I curled up beside you,
You were my best friend,
And always will be,
I really miss you,
October 4th, 2009,
That's that day and year you died,
I cried and cried for 2 whole hours,
I lay beside you when you were sick,
I talked to you,
I cried for you,
I sung to you at times you were hurt,
And now your gone,
That's what hurts,
There's no one to tell my secrets to,
That's why I'm writing this poem for you,
I wrote a letter the night you died,
Wrote it for you,
It's what kept me alive inside,
When I was with you,
I felt like you were my only friend,
The one I could trust,
The one I could turn to,
_______________
Daisy Krug,
My sweet little dog,
Born October 3rd, 1998,
October 4th, 2009,
One day after her birthday,
Turned age 11,
Is the night my poor dog,
And best friend,
Died
Quote about boyfriends
Best friend
Open and honest
Your life
Friends like him too (usually)
Really sweet
In love with you
Everything you need and want
Never late for anything
Drama...
The one bad thing about your boyfriend, is Drama...
Open and honest
Your life
Friends like him too (usually)
Really sweet
In love with you
Everything you need and want
Never late for anything
Drama...
The one bad thing about your boyfriend, is Drama...
Quote about best friends
Best friend: You smile, I smile, You laugh, I laugh, You cry, I cry, You jump off a bridge, Uh yeah, I'm staying right here... Byebye!
Sticks and Stones
Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words will never hurt me,
Pff!
Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words hurt worse than you know,
Words destroy self confidence,
Words are life,
You use them wrong and you make death,
So watch what you say,
And keep your mouth shut,
Because sticks and stones will break my bones,
But words will hurt more than you know
But words will never hurt me,
Pff!
Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words hurt worse than you know,
Words destroy self confidence,
Words are life,
You use them wrong and you make death,
So watch what you say,
And keep your mouth shut,
Because sticks and stones will break my bones,
But words will hurt more than you know
He was only 3
3 days from now,
She'd turn 18,
She had a child,
He was only 3,
The babysitter never allowed him to play in the streets,
Then one night,
She got drunk and high,
Out of depression,
The child got out,
As she climbed the stairs,
He crossed the yard,
Crossed the street,
And then he got scared,
Standing in the middle of the road,
On his way back,
A car came,
Swirving fast,
But not in time,
They hit the kid,
He fell to the ground,
Blood sprayed all around,
A person jumped out of the car,
She fell to the ground by the baby boy,
Crying and crying,
Life had no joy,
She picked up the child,
In her arms,
She had nothing left in her life,
Because this girl,
Well, 3 days from now,
She'd turn 18,
She'd lost her child,
And he was only 3
She'd turn 18,
She had a child,
He was only 3,
The babysitter never allowed him to play in the streets,
Then one night,
She got drunk and high,
Out of depression,
The child got out,
As she climbed the stairs,
He crossed the yard,
Crossed the street,
And then he got scared,
Standing in the middle of the road,
On his way back,
A car came,
Swirving fast,
But not in time,
They hit the kid,
He fell to the ground,
Blood sprayed all around,
A person jumped out of the car,
She fell to the ground by the baby boy,
Crying and crying,
Life had no joy,
She picked up the child,
In her arms,
She had nothing left in her life,
Because this girl,
Well, 3 days from now,
She'd turn 18,
She'd lost her child,
And he was only 3
Suicide For Love
Silent walks,
Long long talks,
Sneaking out at night,
Late summer rides,
She thought it was perfect,
And so did he,
'Till one night,
He decided he'd had enough,
Of this one girl,
He thought she was tough enough,
To take what would happen next,
He didn't think it would put her to rest,
"I'm sorry, but I don't love you",
He told her that night,
She just looked at him with tear filled eyes,
Then she ran off and began to cry,
"I hate you, I hate you," she yelled back,
And that's when he realized her needed her,
"Wait, wait," he yelled chasing her,
She ran in her house,
And grabbed a knife,
And slowly and painfully took her life,
He came running in at her last breath,
"I love you, I love you," he screamed in the night,
But it was to late,
She hit the floor,
"I love you too",
Then she said no more
Long long talks,
Sneaking out at night,
Late summer rides,
She thought it was perfect,
And so did he,
'Till one night,
He decided he'd had enough,
Of this one girl,
He thought she was tough enough,
To take what would happen next,
He didn't think it would put her to rest,
"I'm sorry, but I don't love you",
He told her that night,
She just looked at him with tear filled eyes,
Then she ran off and began to cry,
"I hate you, I hate you," she yelled back,
And that's when he realized her needed her,
"Wait, wait," he yelled chasing her,
She ran in her house,
And grabbed a knife,
And slowly and painfully took her life,
He came running in at her last breath,
"I love you, I love you," he screamed in the night,
But it was to late,
She hit the floor,
"I love you too",
Then she said no more
Quote...
There comes a point in life,
When you completely give up,
You stop trying,
And you feel like dying,
You cry all the time,
Don't get any sleep,
And you know,
It's that one person,
Who you thought loved you,
But completely ruined your life...
When you completely give up,
You stop trying,
And you feel like dying,
You cry all the time,
Don't get any sleep,
And you know,
It's that one person,
Who you thought loved you,
But completely ruined your life...
Sally
Her name is Sally,
She is only 3,
Her mom left her,
Her dad is a drunk,
She cried alone every night,
Trying not to suffer to much,
Her daddy didn't harm her,
Said he didn't intend to,
Yet she felt so helpless,
So afraid,
With nobody to look up to,
Her name is Sally,
She just turned 5,
She is proud that she's still alive,
Each night her daddy comes home drunk,
Beats her, Hits her, It was just to much,
Her name was Sally,
She was only 9,
When her daddy took her life,
He threw her and beat her,
'Till she made no sound,
Watched her silently,
As she hit the ground
She is only 3,
Her mom left her,
Her dad is a drunk,
She cried alone every night,
Trying not to suffer to much,
Her daddy didn't harm her,
Said he didn't intend to,
Yet she felt so helpless,
So afraid,
With nobody to look up to,
Her name is Sally,
She just turned 5,
She is proud that she's still alive,
Each night her daddy comes home drunk,
Beats her, Hits her, It was just to much,
Her name was Sally,
She was only 9,
When her daddy took her life,
He threw her and beat her,
'Till she made no sound,
Watched her silently,
As she hit the ground
Suicide
They're very judgemental,
They don't understand,
About what she's going through,
They can't lend her a hand,
They think she's alright,
But deep down she's hurting,
Although she is very good at hiding it on the surface,
Each day means more scars,
More scars mean less pain,
Until the day she cut to deep,
She throws her life away,
Now at her funeral,
Everyone understands,
The girl was hurting,
Needed love, needed friends,
And it was all because of them,
That she was lying there dead
They don't understand,
About what she's going through,
They can't lend her a hand,
They think she's alright,
But deep down she's hurting,
Although she is very good at hiding it on the surface,
Each day means more scars,
More scars mean less pain,
Until the day she cut to deep,
She throws her life away,
Now at her funeral,
Everyone understands,
The girl was hurting,
Needed love, needed friends,
And it was all because of them,
That she was lying there dead
New Blog
I have decided to move all my poems onto this blog, so they don't have to crowd up my other blog. So these are all my poems and quotes. I will add new poems and quotes when I create more! Thanks!
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