This is a poem written to my best friend

I checked my email,
For a text,
Why weren't you replying?
Was it for the best?

I sighed as I clicked 'check mail' again,
You always replied,
But not this time,

I waited a day,
And then the phone call came,
Telling me you were in jail,
I didn't know what to say,

Your my best friend,
What did you do?
I looked it up,
And I couldn't believe it was true,

You raped, strangled, and stabbed the girl you loved,
She rejected you,
You weren't her crush,

Over and over,
You tried and tried,
Over and over,
She pulled away,
Then she finally elbowed you in the face,

She tried to take off but you choked her,
'Till she stopped screaming,
It would soon be over,

That's when you raped her,
Then strangled her to death,
You stabbed her in the throat,
Without her leaving a last request,

You brought her to a secluded trail,
And threw her in the woods,
You told the cops you had no idea,
No one believed you would,

But then you admitted to it,
And I got scared,
You were in jail,
Not a lot of people cared,

It broke my heart,
And I cried,
$5 million bail,
I didn't think this was real,

I read an article,
It said the death penalty was possible,
I cried some more,
I didn't want you to die,
Your my best friend,
And no matter what,
I'll stand by your side,

Your name is written in lipstick on my mirror,
Every status has your name in hearts,
Every passing moment I think of you,
I pray for you,
I wish for you,

You've always been there for me,
Now I'll be here for you,

I feel bad for the girls family,
But none of this changes the way I think of you,

Your still my best friend,
Your still my "older brother,"

I wish you were home,
So I could talk to you,
I love you,
I miss you,
Everything about you,

I miss your advice,
And your jokes,
I miss the feeling of happiness I got,
When I talked to you,
Knowing you cared,
I looked and waited everywhere,

I wanted a phone call to come,
Saying you were free,
And home you would come,

I wanted you to come to Maine,
Visit me,
Just the way we planned,

Things are getting easier,
But I still cry,
I think about you every night,

I love you,
I miss you,
********* ****,
You're my best friend,
And I'll never forget you.

[I love you so much and you mean everything to me. Can't wait to see you.. Love you bub.]
(I didn't put in the name, I don't want people to know who he is...)