My head tells me one thing,
My heart says another,

My heart means the most to me,
I know I can't love another,

But my head it preventing me,
From suffering from a broken heart,

So I'll listen to me head,
And ignore the pain in my heart,

For now we're friends,
Benefits included,

My heart will get stronger,
And win the battle with my head,

But for now we'll just keep things the way they are,
And see where it goes from there...

To my best friend

Thinking of you makes me cry,
Sometimes it makes me want to die,

I want you home,
But you can't come,
Why do I lose the ones I love?

Friendships come,
And friendships go,
But ours will last forever, I know,

We may not speak,
Or laugh, or cry,
But I know your with me as each day passes by,

What you did was terribly wrong,
We didn't get to find a song,

I want you safe,
In our arms,
Where you can't find any harm,

Your my best friend,
You always will be,
No matter what you did to me,
No matter what you put me through,

I know it wasn't your fault,
It was the police who arrested you...

Written to my bf..

I think of how I love you,
I wonder if it will last,

Every fight we had,
Well it's in the past,

You mean so much to me,
Do I mean that much to you?

When you say you love me,
I wonder if you really do,

With your arms around me,
I feel safe and happy,

I break the awkward silences,
You tell me not to make a sound,

Your warm breath on my cheek,
When I'm freezing cold,

Your smile, your eyes,
The way you laugh,
I love it all,
I want it to last,

You make me smile,
Laugh and cry,
Sometimes you make me want to die,

I don't know how I make it through,
But somehow I survive with you... <3

I remember the day,
You looked in my eyes,
You told me forever,
Was it a lie?

You left for a week,
You haven't come back,

What's going on?
I don't understand,
You just disappeared,
Like a grain of sand,

I haven't got a phone call,
An email,
A letter,
Is your definition of forever, never?

I sat there and cried,
I waited four days,
You still weren't back,
I didn't know what to do or say,

I cried me a river,
I didn't go out,
You didn't love me,
I just figured that out,

Months went by,
The phone wrang,
"Hello?" I answered,
My throat dry,
My eyes sting,

"Yes this is.." I replied,
I didn't know the person on the other line,

"Yes, yes I understand," as I broke down in tears,
I hung up the phone,
Quiet with fear,

That was your mom,
She lives far away,
You were only home for a day,

You jumped off a cliff,
By some stupid dare,
Hit your head on a rock,
And died right there,

It took a few months to find out who your girlfriend was,
For you hadn't told your family,
We we're going to next month,

The wedding date was set,
The days had ticked on by,
But now your gone,
I didn't even get to say goodbye...

You know there's something wrong when my voice get's shaky and my throat is dry. My eyes are watery, and you can hear the tears I cry. My sobs get loud, and my voice gets low. When I'm sitting in a puddle, and I don't know where to go. That's the sound of my cries, my tears pouring down like rain in the night. The smash on the floor and crash like waves, leaving me here, dying, with all this pain.

I'm not in love with him. I just love his advice, his jokes, his laugh, his voice. He's my best friend, but he's 6 years and so many months older than me.. I believe I just fell in love with our friendship.<3

This is a poem written to my best friend

I checked my email,
For a text,
Why weren't you replying?
Was it for the best?

I sighed as I clicked 'check mail' again,
You always replied,
But not this time,

I waited a day,
And then the phone call came,
Telling me you were in jail,
I didn't know what to say,

Your my best friend,
What did you do?
I looked it up,
And I couldn't believe it was true,

You raped, strangled, and stabbed the girl you loved,
She rejected you,
You weren't her crush,

Over and over,
You tried and tried,
Over and over,
She pulled away,
Then she finally elbowed you in the face,

She tried to take off but you choked her,
'Till she stopped screaming,
It would soon be over,

That's when you raped her,
Then strangled her to death,
You stabbed her in the throat,
Without her leaving a last request,

You brought her to a secluded trail,
And threw her in the woods,
You told the cops you had no idea,
No one believed you would,

But then you admitted to it,
And I got scared,
You were in jail,
Not a lot of people cared,

It broke my heart,
And I cried,
$5 million bail,
I didn't think this was real,

I read an article,
It said the death penalty was possible,
I cried some more,
I didn't want you to die,
Your my best friend,
And no matter what,
I'll stand by your side,

Your name is written in lipstick on my mirror,
Every status has your name in hearts,
Every passing moment I think of you,
I pray for you,
I wish for you,

You've always been there for me,
Now I'll be here for you,

I feel bad for the girls family,
But none of this changes the way I think of you,

Your still my best friend,
Your still my "older brother,"

I wish you were home,
So I could talk to you,
I love you,
I miss you,
Everything about you,

I miss your advice,
And your jokes,
I miss the feeling of happiness I got,
When I talked to you,
Knowing you cared,
I looked and waited everywhere,

I wanted a phone call to come,
Saying you were free,
And home you would come,

I wanted you to come to Maine,
Visit me,
Just the way we planned,

Things are getting easier,
But I still cry,
I think about you every night,

I love you,
I miss you,
********* ****,
You're my best friend,
And I'll never forget you.

[I love you so much and you mean everything to me. Can't wait to see you.. Love you bub.]
(I didn't put in the name, I don't want people to know who he is...)